I really wanted to post something about my Dad on the 30th, but just couldn't bring myself to do it. In the past, I have found it very theraputic to blog on the "sad days" but on this anniversary of his death I just couldn't find words. I blame a lot of it on pregnancy hormones, but most of it is just that I really really miss him.
The thought that continually ran through my head the week of Christmas and the anniversary of our loss, was that even that day was the day the Lord had made. Even though I think the verse in Psalm 118 is talking about a specific day, the Lord did still make each day. He determined before hand what things would take place on those days. He knew, before my Dad was even created in his mothers womb, that December 30th, 2006. would be the day he would join Him in eternity. Even the worst day of my life, was the day (and the way) the Lord had made it.
I continually have to remind myself that this great loss was not meant as evil towards me (or my family), but was meant for good for my Dad. Even though it doesn't take the pain away, or even make it less... it is still good for me to remember that my God is GOOD and not evil.
Thank you to all who remembered me on the 30th. I am just overwhelmed sometimes by the love and kindness of the people of God. You are all such a blessing to me! I have thought a lot about the number of people who blessed me at the time of Dad's death. Some in very practical ways, some with words, some with prayer, some with stories and memories, and some with shared tears... it's still an overwhelming thought! And the Lord continues to burden people's hearts to bless me even 3 years later!
My heart aches for Andy and Jenica as they have very fresh and real grief right now. Each loss is unique and painful in a specific way. No one can completely understand another's loss, but we can commit to pray the best we can for those who's arms are empty tonight. Please pray for this wonderful couple as they miss their sweet Daisy.
1.03.2010
This is the Day the Lord Has Made
Posted by Brooke at 1/03/2010 08:17:00 PM
Labels: My Daddy
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Thanks for sharing such good and intimate thoughts, Brooke. It's good to be reminded of the character of our God and to know that we can rest assured in Him especially when we don't understand or like the circumstances we find ourselves in. You and your family were in my thoughts and prayers on the 30th.
I cannot imagine how hard it is...glad you are holding fast to the truth. Even when it doesn't make sense.
Love you, Brooke.
I love that reminder that this is the day the Lord has made. These things can be so hard to understand from our perspective, but I am thankful that one day we will know the answers to the whys.
Last night our study was about God's name Jehovah-rapha, God is the one who heals. I am thankful we have a great physician that is committed to healing our broken hearts and binding up our wounds (psalm 147:3). Love you and continuing to pray for you as you miss your dad.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I can't imagine the continuous pain you feel over the loss of your Father. He was such a wonderful man. I've been thinking and praying for you throughout this holiday season. Much love to you and your family.
Brooke,
I love these verses from Psalms 139
Whither shall I go from thy Spirit?
Or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: If I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;Even there shall thy hand lead me,And thy right hand shall hold me.
So comforting;He loves and cares about what you are going thru.
Much Love, Phyllis Nienhuis
It is difficult when someone passes and goes to be with the Lord.
With be in with strength we are able to feel comfort.
Meditation is an excellent tool to find relief and to go on each day.
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